I carry a deep-seated hurt, an old wound that's more emotional than physical. It's a relentless gnawing inside, born from countless rejections that have chipped away at my sense of self. From being the last picked in sports to deeper cuts like heartbreak, betrayal and abandonment, each rejection has left its mark.
For a long time, blame was my shield. "Fuck them," I'd think, angry and hurt. But here's the thing - living in the space of blame is like treading water; it keeps you afloat, but doesn't move you forward. It's not serving me. It's not healing the hurt.
Now, I'm choosing a different path. I've learned that these rejections don't define me. They're not my whole story. This hurt, as real as it is, doesn't have to be a life sentence. I'm learning to accept it, not as a burden, but as a part of my journey, a part that's shaping me. Acceptance doesn't erase the hurt, but it stops it from controlling me. It's not a reflection of my worth.
Most importantly, I'm showing up for my life now, not as a victim, but as a man who's been through the fire and emerged stronger. This journey has taught me a profound truth: our deepest hurts can become our greatest strengths. They teach us empathy, resilience, and self-worth. They remind us that we can't control others, but we can control how we respond to them.
Pain, in its raw, unfiltered form, has the unique power to strip us down to our most authentic selves. It removes the facade, the masks we wear, and confronts us with our truest vulnerabilities. And in this vulnerability lies our chance for genuine transformation and growth. It's here, in this space, that we find the courage to redefine ourselves – not by the hurts we've endured, but by the resilience we've discovered within. Our journey isn't about forgetting the hurt but about reshaping it into a force that drives us towards a more authentic and empowered way of living.
So here I am, hurt but healing, rejected but resilient, showing up for my life in the best way I know how. And if you're reading this, carrying your own hurts, know this - you're not alone. Together, let's rise above our pain, embrace our journey, and step into the best versions of ourselves. ⚔️❤️